I am quitting smoking, again, tomorrow.
My plan for this go around is to
a) set up a series of self pampering rewards for each week smoke free
b) making a big list of reasons why quitting is awesome and necessary.
I want to make some of this public, as I feel it will help with accountability.
So far, on the Reasons List:
1) Babies! (Smoke free womb!)
2) More energy!
3) Clearer skin
4) Getting back into running
5) Smelling and tasting delicious
6) You know, that whole... cancer thing
7) Dolla dolla bills ya'll
8) $$$ = tattoos, new clothes, and vacations. Oh, and shoes with no holes in them! Maybe even glasses!
Rewards List:
1) A pedicure
2) A facial
3) A massage
4) A really nice, fancy meal
5) Tickets to a play
6) Buying little presents that make me feel fantastic
7) Money saved towards traveling!
Any other suggestions?
Sunday, October 2, 2011
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
New Tatoo possibilities... which lyric to choose?
"WHEN I CRAVED I ATE HEARTS OF SHARKS"
"MY LOVE HAS NEVER LIVED INDOORS"
"AND THE BLOOD RUNS CRAZY WITH GIANT STRIDES"
"I OWE EVERY BELL THAT TOLLS ME"
"MY LOVE HAS NEVER LIVED INDOORS"
"AND THE BLOOD RUNS CRAZY WITH GIANT STRIDES"
"I OWE EVERY BELL THAT TOLLS ME"
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Michael Ruppert
All from "Collapse"
"Local food production is perhaps the most fundamental key to human survival in the collapse of industrialized civilization"
"Community is what will save us. You will fail as a rugged individual. You will survive as a member of a tribe or family."
"We have to get through the anger phase. How we get through it is going to be crucial. The way we're going, under the current government, monetary rule, the only kind of anger that's going to be produced is the destructive kind, born of absolute frustration and bitterness that nothing that's being sold to us as being a solution is making us feel any goddamn better."
"As far as political parties go, they're all anachronisms, they're all products of centuries gone by. The human race now is only going to be concerned not with an ideology, but with what allows them to survive. Capitalism, socialism, communism, are all terms that need to be tossed in the trash can immediately, because all of them were created on the assumption of infinite resourced. Not one of these ideologies, which are now dead dinosaurs, archaic fossils that are no longer relevant to our way of life. Not one of them recognizes that there must be a balance between growth and the resources and the planet. So forget the idea that you can have as much as you want because until mankind surrenders to the fact that it lives on finite planet and it must have balance with that planet, with the resources and animal life and all the other life- there can be no happiness for anything. Anything. Its all about getting balance back."
"Local food production is perhaps the most fundamental key to human survival in the collapse of industrialized civilization"
"Community is what will save us. You will fail as a rugged individual. You will survive as a member of a tribe or family."
"We have to get through the anger phase. How we get through it is going to be crucial. The way we're going, under the current government, monetary rule, the only kind of anger that's going to be produced is the destructive kind, born of absolute frustration and bitterness that nothing that's being sold to us as being a solution is making us feel any goddamn better."
"As far as political parties go, they're all anachronisms, they're all products of centuries gone by. The human race now is only going to be concerned not with an ideology, but with what allows them to survive. Capitalism, socialism, communism, are all terms that need to be tossed in the trash can immediately, because all of them were created on the assumption of infinite resourced. Not one of these ideologies, which are now dead dinosaurs, archaic fossils that are no longer relevant to our way of life. Not one of them recognizes that there must be a balance between growth and the resources and the planet. So forget the idea that you can have as much as you want because until mankind surrenders to the fact that it lives on finite planet and it must have balance with that planet, with the resources and animal life and all the other life- there can be no happiness for anything. Anything. Its all about getting balance back."
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Z.M.S.
I wrote, recently, on this pinata type homemade sculpture, this art project we were told to write the things we hoped to let go of in 2011, I wrote his initials. And the minute I did, I felt awful. How can I ever hope to let you go? What would that cost me? And yet- I cannot offer you something better. I cannot offer you any glimmer of health or hope. As clean and good as I feel now... you are that one raw spot left, and as much as I'd like to offer you solace, I don't even trust myself yet with that.
How much do I long to be that safe space you run to?
Oh my. More than anything else I've ever hoped to comfort. More than anything else I've ever tried to be strong for. Do you know what that means? I have been strong for so many things. So. Many. Things.
And yet, for this, I can't.
Maybe you could find comfort in that backwards vulnerability. You mean that much- to mean so much.
Its so strange, when you can predict heartbreak.. and yet, with every utterance of your name, it comes. I didn't know, a heart could shatter so..
How much do I long to be that safe space you run to?
Oh my. More than anything else I've ever hoped to comfort. More than anything else I've ever tried to be strong for. Do you know what that means? I have been strong for so many things. So. Many. Things.
And yet, for this, I can't.
Maybe you could find comfort in that backwards vulnerability. You mean that much- to mean so much.
Its so strange, when you can predict heartbreak.. and yet, with every utterance of your name, it comes. I didn't know, a heart could shatter so..
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